all it takes is one person to change what you think of something last night my friend Paul from the Philipines told me he loved me and they way i felt was so amazing nothing else mattered i didn't care that it was 4 in the morning and i had to get up for school in less than two hours i was soo happy but it had to happen on this day this day of remembrance of 9/11 and here i was thinking that 11 was the most magical # in the universe and i see that love is pure symbolism Paul and i confessed on a date of tradgity to let me know that love can come from any sadness and peril and the thing is i enjoy love hehe i am even on youtube [link] just look for vids called Simply Jessie part one and two lol because of my dial up i can't watch them so let me know how they are XD

if theres a prize for rotten judgment
i guess i've already won that
no man is worth the agrrivation
that's anctient history
been there done that



many poeple should know this song this is kinda how i feel

my friend Sabrina's cat had her babies last night she freaked us out because she wasn't pushing anymorefor the first one so i had pull him out and open the sack so he wouldn't die he almost did Sabrina had to rub him to stimulate him to breathe the others were easier but we had to keep openeing the sacks because Ashley didn't know enough to open them she was still a baby herself oh well i can't wait till i get my laptop so i can scan my new alter ego and put her on here i am thinking of giving her a backstory and maybe her own series on my page but i don't know because my mom says it seems dumb

so yeah i am such a nerd i don't think i can evr be girlfriend material i hate how i think i like someone and then when we are together we have absaloutly nothing in common exept that we are human i mean really this sucks cornhole bigtime

i can't wait till my birthday my mom said i can drink i just can't come home all drunk i am just gonna drink coolers or something they are like 3% alcohol i will probably get drunk off one lol ummm i am just exited but the thing is Keely wants to take me to her uncles to drink so we have a place to stay but her uncle has a crush on me and he is like 30 so i don't know what to do oh my god i am so nevouse what should i do i mean this 30 year old guy has a crush on a 16 going on 17 year old girl is that wrong he never said anything to me all our friends told me though you see he is the kind of guy who when you wave at him he gets shy and everyone should know how outgoing i am plus he works at my school like he won't try anything on me he ain't like that but now it's weird around him he doesen't wanna sleep with me he just wnats to be my boyfriend but you know it's like wow lol i dunno HELP ME I DUNNO WHAT TO DO